He has This Under Control

We never know what life is going to throw our way, but God has it under control.

How can it be such a typical day until a sudden change of events happens that completely catches you unprepared?  This happened to me the other day.  It was just an ordinary day at work.  I came home expecting the routine of fixing supper, maybe going for a walk, watching tv and/or working on the computer for a while.  However, as I was pulling in the driveway, I stopped to get the mail only to find a letter from the IRS.  I never get mail from the IRS, so it was the first letter I opened.  I had to look at it several times to make sure it was real.  It was a bill for $174,893.00.  Yes, I have the decimal point in the right place.  I know, I had to look twice too.  IRS

Strangely, I didn’t get upset about this surprise.  This could be due to a number of reasons:

  1.    The absurdity of it.  How can you owe more than you make?  Evidently you can.  But it just couldn’t be correct.  There had to be some kind of mistake.
  2.  I’ve been through something similar before and after a couple days of prayer, it worked out. I will tell you that story next.
  3. I’ve heard you can make payments to the IRS for the rest of your life if you have to and they can’t take your house or anything like that.

These thoughts literally went through my mind as I was reading the letter again and again.  Oh, and Scott is going to flip out when he sees this.  It is one thing to get a big bill that you are prepared for.  For example in August I expect the water bill or the electric bill to be higher than normal and there is always this nervous anticipation as I open it.  However, this was a complete shock.

Similarly in 2013 only months after Jeff had passed away, I was going to meet with our accountant to get my taxes figured by myself for the very fist time.  As a matter of fact, I had to google where her office was because I had never done this before.  I felt very confident that I had everything I needed and would get money back as usual.  I still had the farm and although I’m sure I couldn’t find every receipt from Jeff’s wonderful filing system that consisted of sticking receipts in the glove box, in the basket by the door… I was confident I had the majority of expenses documented.  As I was driving to her office, I was making plans for how I was going to spend my refund.  I committed a certain amount to a bible project the church was working on, going to donate some to a charity that was important to our family and I was going to by myself a nice ring to wear where I had worn my wedding ring.  That was going in.

Coming out, all I could do was thank the Lord that even though I owed an amount equivalent to a modest salary or equivalent to the purchase of a new car, I did have the money in an account to pay it.  I remember praying all the way home and just thanking God that no mater that I owed, He had already provided for me to pay this bill.  The money to pay the bill was in the same account that turned out to be the problem.  When I called my financial adviser to get the money out, he couldn’t understand how I could owe taxes.  He did some checking for me and found out that when Jeff’s retirement was rolled to a non-taxed account, the IRS form had been marked incorrectly and I was being taxed as if that money was income.  Once I got the corrected form and sent it to my tax lady, guess what?  I was getting a return.  It is times like this that has proven to me over and over that God is faithful.

Back to my new tax experience.  Because of the fact that so many times in my life God has been faithful, this one didn’t seem to rattle me.  Now Scott’s reaction was a little different.  At first he didn’t believe me.  He thought I was saying it wrong.  He had to take the paper from my hand and look at himself.  I have no doubt in his mind he was wondering how he was going to cover my debt.  He knows I don’t have that much in my savings account.  He started asking me a thousand questions about 2015 that I couldn’t begin answer.  He was already working on a payment plan in his head and I’m sure wondering what he got himself into.  Remember we had just celebrated our 1 year anniversary the week this letter came in the mail.  To put your mind at ease, the bill had something to do with the sale of the farm.  The IRS did not realize it was my primary residence.  It cost me $50 to refile my 2015 taxes and all should be well.

What I can tell you is no matter what you suddenly find yourself going through, the death of a family member in a car wreck, an unexpected diagnosis, a child that has decided to live a lifestyle in ways he/she was not raised, or a spouse that has decided he/she isn’t in love with you any more, God has it under control.  Life isn’t always fun, but through time, He provides a light at the end of the tunnel.

You know, there are lots of places we can put our trust.  We can put our trust in a savings account or we can put our trust in our jobs.  I will say there was a time where I put my trust in the fact that I had “followed all the rules.”  How could anything bad happen to me because I had lived my life according to all of the church rules.  I have found there is only one place you can put your trust and that is in God.  As a warrior going into battle, King David states in Psalms 20:7, “Some trust in chariots, and some in horses, But we will remember the name of the Lord our God.”  King David knew where he had to put his trust during battle when his and his men’s lives were literally on the line.  An extremely large tax bill does not equate to going into a physical battle during King David’s time, but where we put our trust is still the same.  We need to put our trust in the only person capable of such responsibility.

Make the Most of Your Shelf-Life

Live it with a Purpose

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For the months of June and July our offices work 40 hours Monday through Thursday and closes on Friday to save electricity.  For each Friday I have off, I have selected an area of the house to clean/purge.  The first week it was our file cabinet.  I took three big shopping bags of paper to the shredders.  file cabinetLast Friday I tackled the pantry.  I just don’t know how it happens.  The oldest date I found was a box of pudding mix from 2008.  It was pistachio flavored.  I bought it to make a jello salad that never happened.  I threw away items that had been in the pantry for several years and just reached their expiration date such as a jar of molasses.  I can’t even remember how long I have had it.  I use it about twice a year when I make ham and beans.  I will have to get a new one now.  There were also items such as a package of hot dog buns that had just recently been purchased for a Memorial Day cookout, but were already non-edible.  Every item in my pantry was bought for a reason.  I had a plan and purpose in mind for every item when I put it in my grocery cart.  It is just that some items were used for their purpose and some just sat on the shelf until their time was up.

Ephesians 2:10 “For we are His workmanship created in Christ Jesus for good works which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them.”  Like the items in the pantry, God has created each and everyone of us for a purpose.  We are to walk in love, light and wisdom (Ephesians 5).  We are to live a life that bares the fruit of the Spirit demonstrating love, joy, peace, long-suffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control (Galatians 5:22 & 23).  “Above all, love each other deeply, …. Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling. Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others” 1 Peter 4:8-9.  Actually loving one another is such an important part of our purpose there are over 30 verses telling us to do so.

Back to the pantry.  For all of the food I threw out that had not been used for its purpose, we almost daily use something from the pantry for the purpose it was originally purchased.  What I wonder is am I living in a way where I can be used to my full purpose or am I just sitting on the shelf taking the path of least resistance?

It is obvious we as humans have a shelf-life just like the box of cereal or the bottle of balsamic vinegar.  For reasons I can’t explain or even begin to understand, everyone has a different shelf-life.  Some are born with a short shelf-life like Oreo cookies and can complete their purpose in life quickly while others, like a bag of rice, have years to complete their purpose in life.  The question is are you making the most of the shelf-life you have been given?  Are the fruits of the Spirit evident in your actions?  Personally, I have some days that are better than others and some fruits that are more abundant than others.  Kindness – for the most part, I am by nature kind to others.  However, self-control is a topic for later discussion.  It just doesn’t come naturally for me.  No matter, I am committed to trying to live my entire shelf-life to the best of my ability as I can only do with God’s help.  And with His help, I will not spend my life just taking up space on the pantry shelf.

Plank in the Eye?

A Speck is Painful Enough

In Matthew 7 and Luke 6 the parable is told “and why do you look at the speck in your brother’s eye, but do not consider the plank in your own eye?”  After calling this person a Hypocrite, Jesus instructs us to “First remove the plank from your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.”

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This parable has a whole new meaning for me tonight.  I had a left eye experience today that opened my eyes (pun intended).  First I had my annual eye doctor appointment.  As I was complaining about the frustrating process of taking my glasses on and off for each different event, my doctor suggested one contact or mono-vision to help with my aging sight.  I was all in.  I moved from the exam room to the table at the back of the office to practice this new contact adventure.  Putting the contact in was no problem.  This rookie got it in on the first try.  I wish I could say the same for the extraction of the contact.  It took multiple attempts and by multiple, I mean like 15-20.  The assistant was adding drops, double checking that is was still there, and coaching me the entire time.  Because I was such a slow learner, she made me do it again with about the same results.  I went back to the work with my eye red and swollen and not one bit of make-up on the left side of my face.

This event was nothing compared to the antics it took to get the contact out tonight at home by myself.  I worked and worked just like I was instructed at the office.  I could not get it out.  Then I noticed it didn’t appear that the contact was still in my eye.  I picked up my phone and sure enough, I couldn’t read my phone so it had to be out.  Oh no, I couldn’t be that lucky.  It was folded up and lodged up under my eye lid.  You can only imagine the effort it took to get my finger up there to dig the wad of film out.  I actually have a small bruise on my check where I have been digging my fingernails into my face trying to hold my eye open.

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I embarrassingly tell you this story because I feel it is comparable to the removal of a speck or plank from the eye in the biblical sense.  Obviously, this story is a metaphor concerning judgement of others. In the last part of the parable, we are instructed to remove the plank from our own eye.  In other words focus on our own faults not others. I have no idea what it would be like to have a plank in your eye, but  I’m here to say, it takes great effort to get something really small out of your eye.  Think back to the last time you had hair or fuzz in your eye and couldn’t get it out.  If you are like me, you rub and rub, look in the mirror, shine the light from your phone in your eye…. everything you can do to get the uncomfortable object out of your eye.

The question is,  do the faults in our lives make us uncomfortable enough that we want them gone?  I ask myself, am I as desperate to remove the sin or shortcomings from my life as I was to get the foreign object from my eye?  Who can walk around with something in their eye?  Not I.  However, I daily walk around completely unconcerned about the faults or sin in my life.  What would happen if you didn’t remove the object from your eye?  Your eye would continue to water, become more irritated with time, eventually end up with scratches and likely infection.  Sin does the same thing.  It scratches, scars and poisons our lives.  The problem is, we let it stay and often even justify its existence as necessary.

I pray tonight that God will show me the changes I need to make in my life by making them as uncomfortable as an object in my eye.